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Books

Favorite Fiction read in 2021

A mix of science and science fiction reading teach me about the world and help me imagine what’s possible. While that doesn’t cover all the material I read this year, it certainly summarizes my favorites. Im breaking this up into fiction and non-fiction, listed in the order I read them. My family teased me about picking 4 books, but that means that it was a top 10% book, and I like that I had to restrict myself to the best of what I read.

Light Brigade by Kameron Hurley

This is the year that I fell in long-distance love with Kameron Hurley, a sci-fi writer about my age based out of Dayton, Ohio. To be fair, I also found Ohio to be a surreal place to live šŸ˜‰ If you have not read her “We have always fought” essay, you should now. Point is, she is all about bad ass warriors that happen to be female, and that is a theme in the Light Brigade, although that might be a bit of a spoiler because the main character, Dietz, does not use pronouns until the end of the book. I have loved time-travel science fiction since I came unstuck in time with Kurt Vonnegut in Slaughterhouse-Five in high school. Hurley delivers a fresh and also timeless take on a timeline that skips around as a way of experiencing war.

ā€œImagine us all standing in a circle, trying to describe an object to one another, and as we agree on its characteristics, the thing at the center of our circle begins to take form. Thatā€™s how we create reality. We agree on its rules. Its shape.ā€
ā€• Kameron Hurley, The Light Brigade

Kindred by Octavia Butler

Staying with the time-travel theme, I also read Kindred. It was my first Octavia Butler work, and I read it and the Parable series in one gulp. In 2021, I heard about a lot of white people reading as one way to try to understand race and diversity, and also heard some skepticism about this practice. In contrast to the modern tomes, this book is about as old as I am. I did not come to this book to add some diversity to my reading list, but it did open my mind to how much modern black women still might have to contend with the ghosts of generations past. I had the distinct impression that she was writing to understand who she was and how she got here for herself as much as for educating anyone else. As it should be.

ā€œSometimes I wrote things because I couldn’t say them, couldn’t sort out my feelings about them, couldn’t keep them bottled inside me.ā€

ā€• Octavia E. Butler, Kindred

State of Terror by Hillary Rodham Clinton & Louise Penny

This book was a fun thriller read. While the plot and details were all clearly fiction, there were some nods to reality- serving a Secretary of State under a former political rival, the continuous onslaught of underestimation that middle age women face, entanglement between press and political players, and how down right creepy intimate gifts like *your* perfume or *your* favorite flowers can be when they come from a stalker/ rival. It demonstrates how Americans have a complex and evolving relationship with the rest of the world. Parts of it seem tongue in cheek in that it pokes fun at its role as propaganda. I grew up in the 80’s and 90’s and loved Top Gun, so maybe I’m a sucker for some types of propaganda entertainment.

ā€œThe propogandist is his own first customer.ā€
ā€• Hillary Rodham Clinton, State of Terror

Origin by Dan Brown

Artificial intelligence was a reading theme for me this year, both in science and fiction. I read the Asimov classic I, Robot, which was fantastic, foundational and dripping with sexism. Lots of the non-fiction I read in this field was oddly dystopian considering my 10 year old tries to ask Alexa how she should do her hair. Origin struck the right balance for me between dystopian and something I want. Plus it is a fast paced romp through Spain, which I love. I hope the future is as fun as is it scary and weird. I love seeing what humans can create and how they live with the web of actions and consequences.

ā€œWe are now perched on a strange cusp of history, a time when the world feels like itā€™s been turned upside down, and nothing is quite as we imagined. But uncertainty is always a precursor to sweeping change; transformation is always preceded by upheaval and fear. I urge you to place your faith in the human capacity for creativity and love, because these two forces, when combined, possess the power to illuminate any darkness.ā€
ā€• Dan Brown, Origin

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Books

READ

Books have been an important part of my life- a way of learning about myself, the human experience, and the world, a way to entertain myself, organize my thinking, and keep me company when Iā€™m lonely.

Certainly, there have been periods of my life where I have gotten away from reading for pleasure. After completing my thesis, it was years before I picked up a book for fun. When my children were very little, I admit I did not read much. But when I look at the periods of the fastest personal growth in my life, they are typically proceeded by lots and lots of reading. And like many people last year, I have felt lost, stuck, and alone. So in 2021, I set a nebulous goal to read more.

I read about 35 books in 2021, despite not reading much while I was in the US for the summer. I got a Kindle for Christmas 2020, and it got quite a workout this year. My husband and I mostly replaced a nightly TV show from Netflix with reading before bed. We seem to both be enjoying the shift. The more I read, the more I found that I wanted to read. So many books, so little time!

As my reading list started growing faster than my ability to finish books, I gave myself permission to not finish books that did not turn out to be a good fit for whatever reason. A younger me would have stuck with whatever she started, unless it was an extreme outlier, but that girl had more time than I do. I’ve also started dropping books from my reading list if I lose my enthusiasm before I even start.

At some point during the year, I added audiobooks on my walks, bike rides, and while doing domestic chores around the house. Almost everyone likes being read to. With the caveat that some books work better as audiobooks than others.

So, like may others as we slide toward 2022, I’m reviewing how this year went and thinking about what I want for next year. My 2021 goal to read more surpassed expectations. So I’m keeping it. But I can’t clearly remember everything I read off the top of my head. So for 2022, I plan to use this blog as a public reading record.

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Seasons

Remembering Ruth Bader Ginsburg

Last Saturday, I woke up to a text that our beloved Supreme Court Justice and equal rights warrior had passed on the eve of Rosh Hashanah, September 18th, 2020. This NPR news story confirmed the bad news. The supreme court blog has a detailed post honoring her life. This video is a quick summary of her in her own words, something she was passionate about using.

Like so many that have admired her work, I have been struggling to mourn her loss and make sense of what her absence might mean. For me, that means reading the words she leaves behind.

Some favorite quotes:

ā€œMy mother was very strong about my doing well in school and living up to my potential. Two things were important to her and she repeated them endlessly. One was to ā€˜be a lady,ā€™ and that meant conduct yourself civilly, donā€™t let emotions like anger or envy get in your way. And the other was to be independent, which was an unusual message for mothers of that time to be giving their daughters.ā€
ā€• Ruth Bader Ginsburg, My Own Words

ā€œI tell law studentsā€¦ if you are going to be a lawyer and just practice your profession, you have a skillā€”very much like a plumber. But if you want to be a true professional, you will do something outside yourselfā€¦ something that makes life a little better for people less fortunate than you.ā€ ā€“ The Mercury News, February 6, 2017

ā€œSo often in life, things that you regard as an impediment turn out to be great, good fortune.ā€

“Women belong in all places where decisions are being made. It shouldn’t be that women are the exception.”

ā€œFight for the things that you care about, but do it in a way that will lead others to join you.ā€

ā€œWhen I’m sometimes asked when will there be enough [women on the Supreme Court] and I say, ‘When there are nine,’ people are shocked. But there’d been nine men, and nobody’s ever raised a question about that.ā€

ā€œI donā€™t say womenā€™s rightsā€”I say the constitutional principle of the equal citizenship stature of men and women.ā€
ā€œWomen will have achieved true equality when men share with them the responsibility of bringing up the next generation.ā€

“Reliance on overbroad generalizations … estimates about the way most men or most women are, will not suffice to deny opportunity to women whose talent and capacity place them outside the average description,” said Ruth Bader Ginsburg in a majority opinion that allowed women into a military academy, frequently using examples of how discrimination based on sex hurts men too. But ā€œSome of my favorite opinions are dissenting opinions,” Ginsburg told NPR. “I will not live to see what becomes of them, but I remain hopeful.”

In 1979, she shared Some Thoughts on Judicial Authority to Repair Unconstitutional Legislation. She introduced the topic with, “Among governing institutions, the judiciary has been described as”the least dangerous branch.”‘ Courts in our system have the awesome power to declare laws unconstitutional, but judges command no troops, and are said to lack the power of the purse. My remarks address a facet of the purse power supposition: When a legislative product is constitutionally infirm because it is under-inclusive, what remedies lie within the judicial province? Discussion will focus on the question whether a court may order inclusion of a category of persons left out by the legislature, a question particularly pointed when the court’s inclusion order would mandate increased government spending.”

In 2010, she shared The Role of Dissenting Opinions, opened saying “It is a subject I have had to think about more than occasionally in recent terms.” and closed with, “although I appreciate the value of unanimous opinions, I will continue to speak in dissent when important matters are at stake.”

May her memory be a blessing.

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Seasons

Shana Tovah!

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Let’s borrow from our Jewish brothers and sisters today and take this opportunity to think about the wrongs we are responsible for and how we can make amends. It’s a beautiful fall day. Why carry hurt with us into the next season of our lives? Probably because it is easier to hide and ignore our shadow sides. But remember: it takes a lot of compost to grow a beautiful garden.

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Seasons

Light and Shadow

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ā€œWhen you light a candle, you also cast a shadow.ā€ ā€• Ursula K. Le Guin

Notice the contrast between light and shadows today. Play with the contrast. Sunlight has already completed a long journey to reach you. This is mindbogglingly more true for other star light. Light reflected from the moon reminds us that not all journeys are a neat path from A to B.

Watch dust trace out the fractals of Brownian motion. So much is going on all around us, with or without our attention, but waiting there for us when we tune into it.

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Natural Seasons

Happy Autumnal Equinox!


This video from NASA shows how the Earth was illuminated between 9/19/2010 and 9/19/2011 from the vantage point of a geosynchronous satellite.

Groups of people have long celebrated this day marking the beginning of fall for us norther hemisphere dwellers. The equal hours of day and night for which the day is named is slightly dependent on latitude because of how sunrise and sunset are defined (the edge of the sun passing the horizon vs. the center of the sun). For all of us, today is the day that the tilt of the Earth points neither toward nor away from the sun. We pass through this balance point as the sun’s most direct rays pass from the northern to the southern hemisphere. Instead of the moon rising 50 minutes later than the day before, there is a period around the equinox that it only rises 30 or 40 minutes later, leading to more light earlier in the night, traditionally good for harvests.

The equinox is the harbinger of change, as days shorten and nights lengthen and warm seasons become cool. Now is the time for harvest, reaping the rewards of the seeds you planted earlier, for deciding what is important enough to you to protect for the coming winter, and cutting away the things that won’t weather. Let us honor this day by choosing a recent victory or achievement to celebrate and finding one thing to donate, throw away, stop doing or otherwise choose to let fall away. It takes a lot of compost to grow a beautiful garden.

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Projects

Idea life cycle

I have cycled through a lot of ideas in the last couple years. Some were closely related, others seemingly disparate. I would like to record my process so I can use it again later.

Generating my own ideas requires some combination of inspiration and isolation. If I am stuck on a particular step, I should ask myself which of these dimensions I am missing.

1. Intent
If you don’t know where you are going, any road will take you there.” and “Not all those who wander are lost.” are both double edges swords. You can cover a lot of ground without a destination, and while the journey may be pleasant, it is difficult to know when you have arrived.

2. Immersion
There are very few topics where you can contribute something meaningful without first understanding what is already there, gaining some fundamental skills, and learning a few tricks.

3. Incubation
Maintaining conditions suitable for the development of an idea may depend on the field, but can include talking to others, writing, math, coding, or otherwise working through the idea as well as letting it sit in the back of your mind while you go for a walk or take a shower.

4. Insight
This is when you have turned the topic around enough that you have seen something that is uniquely yours. It can arise as an AHA! moment, or slowly appear like mountains over the horizon.

5. Implementation
Now that you have something interesting, do you want to share it with the world? Usually this requires work to put it in a form you can share. Your intention can help you identify when you are done.

6. Integration
How does that thing you just made fit in with your personal story? If you have an incoherent string of things, figuring out how they fit together might help figure out what comes next.

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Projects

R Error: unexpected input in “{“

I’ve been using R lately to help look at some greenhouse data at the Grow Haus. The Grow Haus is a great space filled with good energy and people on a mission to provide sustainable food production, distribution, and education. And good people need good data.

So, I was crushed when my formerly working script to read a .csv fileĀ into R and graph that data stopped working. For reference, I am working on a MacBook Pro running OSX (10.6.8) and running R version 3.0.1. I kept getting Error: unexpected input in “{“ when I ran it from the terminal command line using Rscript file.r.Ā Ā It worked last week. What gives?

I first tested each individual line of the script in the R console, and they all worked. This was originally more frustrating, but then I figured it was a communication problem and decided to run R through the terminal. To start R from the command line instead of just in the console, type R. To load a script into R, useĀ source(‘file.r’). I got the same error again.

So I opened the file in the terminal using vi file.r. This showed me that when I had last saved the file in TextEdit, it had switched from plain text to rich text format and injected a bunch of junk as a header that was preventing R from reading the script. I switched it back to plain text in TextEdit (Format< Make Plain Text) and set the Open and Save preferences to use Plain Text Encoding (UTF-8) when opening or saving files. Then the script magically worked again. Boo to text editors switching stealthily to .rtf mode! Maybe this will be a nudge to get more comfortable using a terminal text editor.

Some bonus R data checking tips: After running source(‘file.r’), ls() will list the loaded variables in your workspace. If you have a table loaded called data, you can see the header and first could rows using head(data).

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Uncategorized

Inspiring vs. depressing

I haven’t posted here in the last 6 months. Why? Well, researching these things can be kind of depressing. I like to be informed, but also focus on the inspiring, and things that are working well. Here is an example of something awesome: theĀ Charlotte Douglas International AirportĀ in North Carolina has done a huge waste reduction project which includes worm compost and green design.

I’m also learning how to make websites. Check out claredibble.comĀ to see local and global projects I find inspiring.

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Natural

Acres per finished steer of feedlot vs. grassfed beef

AccordingĀ to this reference, grassfed beef can be stocked at 1.6 steers per improved pasture land acre and go from 525 pounds to 1050 pounds from May to October. Ā That means about 0.625 acres of improved pasture per finished steer. Unimproved pasture takes more, seemingly 2 – 4Ā accordingĀ to forums I found.

According to thisĀ description of pounds of corn per pound of beef, they estimate that it takes 17 – 62.5 bushels of corn to finish a steer.Ā Let’s say we can produceĀ 140 bushels of corn per acre. That means that it takes 0.13 – 0.45 acres to finish feedlot beef. I also learned thatĀ 6 pounds of feedlot feed contains 1 pound of corn and the balance includes distillers grain left over from making ethanol and corn gluten from high fructose corn syrup. So the corn nutrients are extracted in a variety of different methods before they reach us. Ā Cows are brought to the feedlot at 600-900 pounds and are slaughtered at 1300 pounds, which means that they are generally foraged for a while first and slaughtered larger than grass fed beef.

It seems like it probably takes about three times as much land to have a grass fed steak vs. a feedlot steak.